BLANK DAYZE.

Anonymous asked: were you in the laramie project?
if so, you were actually amazing!
you have no idea how talented you are

Thanks <3 that means a lot.

It’s been ages since I’ve come back onto this, and I just felt like saying something, but not to just one person or more people over and over again, the same story but just anyone, whoever wants to read can just read and it doesn’t even bother me if no one reads it, it just feels necessary that someone knows…anyways. Right at this moment it feels as if….I’m about to start some deep hearted bullshit emotional rant. I’m not, I just want advice? maybe? I’m not even stuck or motionless or the situation is not problematic at all, something just feels like it’s out of place, or that maybe that piece shouldn’t fit there or maybe it’s a late piece in the puzzle. But something between us when we’re not next to each other feels wrong, to me. Maybe that’s a good thing, because when we are, everything seems right, like nothing else needs to work or function, it’s just us in our  space, doing what we want, our thing. But when we’re not it gives me all this other space, this room to just think of everything else and everything that could be wrong and I just don’t want that space, I mean I dont even know if i’m asking anything from anyone here, I’m just fucking confused already, why am I even writing this, I think i’m just typing my thoughts, there’s not even a coherent sentence in here, I can’t structure anything right now, except for maybe this sentence, the one i’m writing now? I think the best song or ‘track’ that would best describe this moment or thought would probably be from Kanye’s Late Registration, the first two tracks, the instrumentals on those two songs is off the fucking chain, i reckon the just the whole progression and flow of that track would go perfectly with the flow and ebb of me right now. WHY AM I TELLING YOU THIS, I don’t know I’m on holidays, I have nothing better to do than facebook and movies. And applying for jobs, something i’m not getting right now. I dont know, I guess the whole reason I started this was just to inform you, i guess inform is the correct word that It feels like we’re going through some sort of mud puddle, or like sinking through quicksand, but not downwards, still forwardds (Y) it’s not going any faster, but it’s moving, and I don’t know what to feel about that? who knows. anyways, I’m out.